Entering the void.

Here is what I wrote on my Facebook wall last night:

"Pleased to be re-entering the void. Who knows what possibilities may appear? Going back to measuring time by cups of tea consumed will be a true joy compared to measuring it by how many arses one had had to kiss. Pen will grace paper, head the pillow and the mind the infinite escape of the imaginiation."

It's funny, I think the last time I wrote anything which had any quality, like this arguably has, was probably when I was in Korea, when I first started this blog. I think that I am only able to write when I feel free and, although for various reasons I do not currently feel overly free, I feel that I am freeing myself by making choices. I decided to quit my job. I hate it, it's draining and I will be better off without it. Understandably, I realise how fraught the whole employment situation currently is and, believe me, I am grateful for the opportunities and the like that I have been offered, but I can't be there. I have another job and I will find another way to make everything fall into place.

For the first time in a long time I feel liberated; I can read all that I want, write, cook, take photos, SMILE, study what I want to study. It will be wonderful, albeit sometimes tinged with guilt and feelings of faliure or, rather, fear of potential failiure because of abscence of money that I could be earning from said job that I hate....but I am willing to accept that if it means less piece of mind and more peace of mind.

As a small side, I am considering dermal fillers...this isn't the mind of a twenty-one year old....